I'm apparently gifted in various aspects like drawing, singing, learning, academics etc. But the thing about talent is that you have to find a way to harness it, preferably during the childhood... and without motivation it all kinda just falls on its face. My biggest mistake in life was trying to rush through the process in hopes of catching up only to burn myself out for a couple of years when what I should have done was take it easy and start out small.
It took until I moved far away from "home" until I was able to gain control over my life, so I pretty much had to start over from scratch. That inluded finding enough funding to invest in stuff like a proper computer and tools for learning and doing art, coding, music etc. But I think I can manage despite losing the optimal window of opportunity... hopefully.